With the sound of the rain against my window this afternoon, I begin to type this rather typical blog post update thing.
This morning, I woke up very early. I had to. My first task for the day was to escort my mother to the surgeon, for some minor eye surgery. It all seems to have worked out the way it should and in a few weeks time, the other eye will go through the same procedure.
Later, after having done some grocery shopping, I returned home to have some lunch and then some rest before starting some writing: a job application among other things.
This evening my oldest brother may come around for a visit. It will be nice.
What else I will be doing tonight, I don’t know yet, but I will probably find some way to pass the time.
Not having the best of days. Today I’m at home, due to not feeling well. I have stomach pains that started yesterday and only kept me annoyed through the evening and night. Woke up feeling sick and having the same pain, so I had no choice but to call in sick to the office where I spend my days as a part of a government program for the unemployed. First time in two years I’ve had to stay at home due to illness. I’m mostly not ill, even if I have had my share of health problems over the years.
It was the same for most of the years when I had a job. I was very rarely forced to stay at home due to illness. Until the problems with my legs hit me in the spring of 2001. Then some bad years followed, but since the spring of 2006 I’ve been back to being ill only for a few days a year at the most. At least I’ve not had to stay at home due to illness more than that but I’ve certainly felt unwell a lot more often without being really ill.
I missed out on seeing friends online both last night and today and that has not helped me to feel better. Neither does the weather. Only rain and clouds today. Supposed to rain all day and evening, not ending until tomorrow.
Some might say it’s a perfect time to be ill when there’s nothing to do but stay indoors anyway. I disagree. If I was feeling all ok I would be busy getting ready for my brother arriving to visit tomorrow. Now I don’t even know if I’ll be well enough to enjoy that as much I would like.
Still, at times like these, it’s good to remember it isn’t the end of the world even if it feels like it at the moment.
During this week I have spent some evenings watching the three Jason Bourne movies starring Matt Damon. I liked them all and found the story thrilling all the way to the end.
Yesterday morning I helped my mother go to the doctor to have her eyes examined and operations scheduled. Turned out my mother has lost almost half of her eyesight so having surgery to restore some of that will certainly be helpful.
Later we did some grocery shopping but by then I was in so much pain that I almost threw up when I had returned home.
I know, I ought to see a doctor but I’m still thinking this will go away by itself. It has done so before but only to return. Then go away again.
Then there’s the feeling of already having too many problems to deal with that sort of stops me from getting the energy to take on one more. Probably makes no sense but it makes sense to me. I have walked enough miles in my shoes to know.
I feel the pressure to write something boring now, boring and average. Not mention any controversial words or try to be funny in any way that might offend anyone.
Maybe I ought to post a recipe for boredom, with the prominent ingredient being average, lot of average. Of course that would be boring and that is the point.
Some people will want the boring average stuff to read. Not the strange stuff I post so much of. They do not want controversy, they want to feel safe and secure in their average values. Better not elaborate – I feel I’m beginning to be controversial and strange again.
When I started writing this blog, in 2005, I didn’t know what to write so I let it be a diary. I wrote about what happened in my life and how I felt about it. Soon, I started looking back at my life and then I wanted to present my interests and show off how creative I thought I was – or rather – wanted to be.
Recently I’ve been thinking about starting over. Begin again. Fresh. A new blog, built on what I have learned from this one but with more focus on one major topic. The more I think about it though, the less I really want to do it.
My goal has never been to reach the whole world or to become internet famous. My one goal has been self-expression. That’s why the posts I write are almost only about me. Sometimes I have trouble finding ideas to write which results in posts like this one. A ramble, totally unfocused and average. Perfect for a Monday when the rain is pouring down and will continue to do so for another full day.
Listening to music makes thinking easier though. Mostly thinking turns into daydreaming though.
Bad weather today. Started late last night. Rainy, windy and then sleet through most of the night followed by more rain in the morning.
I went straight from the office to my oldest brother yesterday. To greet him on his birthday and have some dinner. A lot of people came to greet as usual: family members, friends, relatives and neighbours.
My nephew and his girlfriend showed up and of course had their two months old daughter with them, so I got to meet her for the first time. A beautiful baby. Made me think of how time seems to pass by faster for every year.
Anyway it was a nice evening but walking to the train station in the rain in order to get back home wasn’t nice at all. However, made it home almost dry and could relax a few hours before going to sleep. Slept very well to around 7 when I had to get up and go to the bathroom. Went back to bed for a little longer before getting up and starting to get some things done.
A little later I had some breakfast, then returned to my writing. Here I am. Writing. Of course this is not all I’m writing today. I’m also doing some writing for job applications and some writing for my projects at the office. Writing is what it’s all about.
Also – and this is a bit of a secret – I’m still working on my project to watch all of the Harry Potter movies in order to write something about them later. Here, and elsewhere.
Not much else to write about today. I was thinking I’d look back on some old posts and see if I can possibly continue some of the topics in new post but that’s still only a thought. Not decided if I will do it.
Weather has been bad all day. Rainy and windy. But the real storms are passing to the north and to the south of my location so not getting too much of them here. Still not the kind of weather I care to go out in. Still I had to go out early this morning to mail a letter. It was not too bad to drive by the mail box but for the rest of the day I stayed indoors.
I found The Hurt Locker on dvd at a bargain price at the local superstore and bought it along with some groceries. Then spent the day watching the movie. It was good but not as great as I expected. Still good to have seen it since I’ve seen all other movies directed by Kathryn Bigelow.
My brother stopped by for some coffee in the afternoon.
I had some leftover chicken and potatoes for dinner. Then I had a shower to wash my hair. I really ought to get a haircut soon. After the shower I started watching more episodes from season 4 of NYPD Blue.
As soon as my hair is dry enough I will probably go to sleep as I have to get up early tomorrow to go to the office.
Yesterday I thought I would not be here again. Be here as in posting on this blog. I managed to make a mistake and get the blog deactivated. Luckily, got my blog back after sending an email to WordPress. I’m very happy the matter could be sorted out so that I could find my blog back up when I woke up this morning. I’ve learned a lesson and will be even more careful to avoid mistakes in the future.
Anyway tonight I’m looking forward to spending time in a chatroom to see a friend. I won’t get myself into trouble again by mentioning where or why.
The day started sunny and chilly. In the afternoon it got rainy and cold.
Was late to get going due to a visit by the plumber to start working on the water heater problem. With any luck it will be fixed soon.
I worked on a project at the office but didn’t make much progress as my thoughts were elsewhere for the most part.
Got home and had a lot of pain in my stomach but it went away after a while. Got some dinner and then started looking at Twitter and Tumblr to see what I had missed.
Now I’m writing this and listening to some music through Spotify.