John Eddie – Getting Kinda Old (Being Young At Heart)
Time to grow up, perhaps. I have been feeling the same way lately. I always think of myself being young at heart but lately it has become kind of old. Somewhere along the line I stopped growing up. I think it was about the time when my father died, which will be twenty years ago next year, and since then I’ve been kind of stuck around 30 years old. I was 27 at the time. I even think I regressed a little in the years following. Not right away but after I started at the university I most certainly did. Then I never seemed to get on with my life again. I struggled but I couldn’t find my way in the world. Actually, I mostly turned away from the world. Still have some kind of void inside, some darkness, some sorrow I can’t seem to overcome. However, to the people around me, I hide it, or at least I avoid to mention it. I carry my pain alone, because I think others are suffering more and to still be sad about it almost 20 years down the road is a bit silly in my book, even though I would never think so about others’ pain or sorrow.
One more thing, a few weeks ago I took a not too serious test on Facebook to find out my mental age and the result was: 33 which made me stop and think that there is some truth to the test even though it was only for fun.
Anyway I happened to listen to this song the other night waiting for the football (soccer) game to start on television and all of the feelings and thoughts started pouring out. So I decided to write something about it and put this song on my blog.