Yes I know, I had a Frank Zappa moment there for a second or two. Ain’t it funny how that one song is the one everyone seems to connect with Zappa when the man made so much great music? Not saying that song is bad but still, there is so much more music to the name Zappa.
Ok, that little rant is not the topic of this post. I just happened to think of it while typing the headline.
September is here again. Yes, I know it has been a week of it already but you see I haven’t been up to writing anything. As usual. The times when I had to express myself every day of the year seem to have vanished. Now I’m happy if it happens once a month or even less. Besides, nobody reads blogs anymore anyway, right?
Well, I still read a few from time to time but to be honest I spend more time reading Twitter and Tumblr these days. Even so, I like to keep this blog alive because I want to reach the 10 year mark next year. Also I’m still thinking of trying to make something more out of the texts I have published over the years. Will see where that leads.
At the new office place I’m at most of my days, I still struggle to find a meaning and a new project to work on. I am waiting for the election to be over so that things might change. With a new government things will change because policy is going to change. If nothing happens, I’m not sure how much longer I can go on seeing my life go to waste.
Yes, I know if I want to see change I will have to be the change. Easy to say. I’ll tell you this: walk a year in my shoes then come back and say that again if you still think it is so easy.
Of course I’m still searching for employment. Not much else to do, if I wish to find something. No luck though.
My health is somewhat all over the map. Lately, I’ve been pretty good but it changes a lot. I know I would be better if I had been doing a real job for all these years instead of only looking for jobs. The stress sometimes makes me feel like I don’t want to live but I usually fight that feeling. Many times I feel useless though. Forgotten by society and only considered as a statistic.
Thankful for the friends I still keep in touch with. Not sure I’d go on without you all. Music and movies provide some relief and renewed energy, but mostly comfort and escape from reality. Same goes for TV shows.
Look, I managed to repeat myself again. Time to leave.
Confused? Let me tell you something, I didn’t do it. The other guy did it. What other guy? Ok, maybe it wasn’t the other guy but it could have been. I would like you to consider that option while I slowly and quietly exit through the backdoor and vanish into thin air.
With that all taken care of, I’ll return to the news.
Today being Saturday not much has happened in the life of Swedish Moon. In fact: nothing.
Nothing worth telling.
Woke up at a decent hour, after having a very vivid dream of being back at work while travelling somewhere out of the country. Then got up, made breakfast, listened to the radio.
Checked the internet and my Twitter for the latest news. Looked at some websites. Listened to music on Spotify. Checked Netflix for something to watch.
Went to the bathroom. Looked at porn videos. Masturbated. Scrolled through the Tumblr dashboard. Checked Facebook. Read some news online. Made a decision to go grocery shopping. Went by bus. Came back home. Opened a can of baked beans. Heated them on a plate in the microwave along with some leftover stuff. The resulting mess was my dinner. Not too bad. To drink: a glass of fresh plain water.
Returned to the net. Watched the new episode of Strike Back on HBO Nordic. Looked at MFC. Then tweeted. Checked Tumblr again. Listened to music. Went to watch some regular television for a while. Then back to the internet to write this among doing other things.
Soon I will probably fall asleep. Less than 50 minutes remain of my Saturday.
My weekend started on Friday. I don’t remember much of it except the chatroom I was in and the snow I had to shovel. The first was fun and the second was a boring chore that brought me an aching back and a lot of fresh air. Oh, and I also travelled to the city and bought some clothes.
I slept kind of late on Saturday morning. Probably didn’t get up before 10 am. Read the morning paper, had breakfast. Then went out to shovel more snow. Also had some other chores but didn’t have the energy to really get much of it done. Instead I had too much to eat and watched a lot of episodes of Sons of Anarchy on Netflix. During this, I also tweeted and checked my Tumblr dashboard. Went out to shovel more snow later too if I’m not mistaken. Did I also stop by a chatroom on Saturday night? I can’t remember so I hope I’m not offending anyone. I was really sleepy once I managed to get to bed.
Woke up late on Sunday morning. Had a nice dream probably but don’t remember much of it. Again, I had breakfast read the morning paper and then went out to shovel some snow. Starting to sound like a boring weekend by now. I guess it was kind of ordinary.
Spent the afternoon watching the rest of the episodes of season one of Sons of Anarchy. Later, around dinner time, my oldest brother visited for a while.
In the evening, I had a long shower and washed my hair. Afterwards, I felt very refreshed. Continued to watch Netflix while also reading Twitter, tweeting and looking at Tumblr.
Went to sleep rather late and woke up around 5 am because I had to go pee. Then fell asleep again and woke up too late. Since the weather wasn’t too good, I decided to “work” at home and sent a message to the office about this before going out to shovel some snow and then going out to do some grocery shopping, pay some bills and other stuff.
This week I have had some ideas for things to write but I haven’t taken the time to write any of them. I have a good excuse: I have had a cold. In fact , I still have a bit of a could. For some days and nights I have been bothered by a most irritating cough and also suffered from the very dry and cold air outside. Luckily the cold weather is now mostly gone and so is the coughing and suffering. However, the cough made me sleep very poorly for too many nights which in turn has made me somewhat exhausted and cranky. I’m only now, today, starting to feel like my normal jolly old self again so if I have offended anyone due to my cranky mood I do apologize most sincerely.
Wasn’t going to make any blog update today, or yesterday, but here I am. Got nothing else to do except going to sleep which I will soon do, as soon as this is finished. Not that my weekend is bad, it’s just not very exciting.
I’m mostly just watching movies or TV, listening to music and eating. From time to time I also check my Twitter and Tumblr. That’s about all. I haven’t even masturbated more than once this whole week but I think that is due to the cold and coughing and that I will be back to my regular schedule soon enough. What is my regular schedule then? I don’t know. I don’t decide such things in advance. However, I’d say my usual schedule would be once every other day at least. Or whenever I’m in the mood.
Business at the office has been as usual this week. I’ve made some progress on some things, and been fairly efficient as far as I know.
The rest of the things I will return to at some other time.
Back from the darkness of my latest nightmare. Not that bad, but each post requires a new opening, or not?
The weekend came and went and I came a few times. I have this toy I use sometimes when I don’t feel like it’s too much work. Yet after using it, I was once more reminded why I mostly can’t be bothered. However it was a nice feeling while it lasted.
What else? Let’s see. I watched some movies, TV-series episodes and listened to some music. Slept a lot. Had too much candy to eat. Only because I found some cheap Jelly babies at the local supermarket and could not stop myself from buying a lot of them.
I will have to avoid that place for a while or I will not be able to control myself.
What else. Well I visited my oldest nephew on his birthday, yesterday. Mostly everyone focused on his daughter because she is still not even a year old and of course completely adorable.
The cake was really good. Other than that it was a birthday like most other birthdays. I talked to my nephew about my blog project for a bit. A nice afternoon.
I helped my mother with her medication after the eye surgery. She is very happy to be able to see clearly again.
What else. I talked to some friends on Twitter a little.
Yes, indeed. I wake up. I get ready. I go to the office and I check my Twitter and notice I’m unfollowed and blocked by someone I recently tweeted to. Find out I’m also unfollowed on Tumblr by the same person. Not sure this has ever happened to me before.
Sure, I’ve been unfollowed before. That happens from time to time. Usually I’m unfollowed by people I don’t know who suddenly start following me on Twitter and/or Tumblr and then stop after some time. I suspect the reason to be that I don’t follow back or that I don’t tweet them or that they find they don’t like my tweets or whatever.
When someone I know unfollows me, it’s a bit different. So far it hasn’t happened more than a few times and both times by the same person. First time I was given a reason, this time it seems I didn’t get a reason for being both unfollowed and blocked so I guess all that remains for me is to move on.
I could of course dwell on this and ponder the reasons this person might have but that wouldn’t be very constructive as it would only be speculation and not fact. So, I leave this matter as it stands and move on.
Generally speaking I do know that my tweeting and tumblr-ing can’t please everyone all the time and it’s not my goal to please anyone. My reason for using Twitter and Tumblr is to express myself and interact with others. I have unfollowed people too but most of the time I do it after being unfollowed by them. I also block accounts sometimes but only if I strongly suspect them to be fake/spammers and such.
Ok, enough of this stuff.
Today I hope I will do some productive writing and other work and also have a fine day in as many ways as possible.