Nothing. No, not really, but I wouldn’t report it as news.
The chaos in my brain is best defeated by writing.
Last few days have seen some changes happening. Good ones in the long run.
I can look forward to a slight improvement of my situation. After 5 years at the bottom of the pool, this is good news for me. And believe me, you do not want to be at the bottom of the pool. Not recommended. You live and you learn, though.
To be in the position to start over after these long years of just survival takes some getting used to . I haven’t gotten my head adjusted for it yet. Thoughts and feelings are all over the place and I haven’t slept very well for a few days.
But I expect to regain my footing soon.
In other news:
Nothing. Very little.
The days go by and I keep watching for good news without finding any at all.
The job front:
No improvement. I keep searching. Motivation is hard to maintain when there’s so little gain. However I still struggle on.
My brother will be visiting by the end of June. Will be nice.
Other than that. Not much happening. Days follow days and time runs away.
Relax, I’m talking about the weather. June was ok, July awesome and August has been amazing. Not at all like last summer when it rained every other day and some day in June was colder than Christmas or perhaps New Year’s Eve.
This year, after a really long snowy and mostly cold winter followed by a short spring, summer grew to become really wonderful. Just what this nation needed. Maybe all the sun and warm weather is the reason I haven’t been writing much on here. Maybe also the fact I haven’t had much to write about, but let’s stay on the positive side of things this time.
This week my brother the chef/drummer is coming to visit me. Been a year since last time so it’ll be nice to catch up on things.
A part from that, there’s not much going on. I’m still trying to find some work and I’m still spending my days at an office where I work on project that might help me find a real job.
Next month, I’ll be a year older again. Later in September, my oldest nephew turns 40 years old. Soon he’ll catch up with me. Anyway I’m really proud of him because he’s running his own business directing and producing music videos and other projects while also taking care of his baby daughter. From very early on he seems to have known what he wanted to do and then he simply followed his dream.
I wish I had some more of that kind of determination. However, I’ve never been able to really decide what I really want to do. I’m too easily distracted if I find something interesting while I’m already doing something else.
No I don’t think I’m the only one having problems. No, I don’t think I’m the only one having the problems I have.
I would very much not like to come across as thinking I’m alone in the world of problems. Of course there are lots of people having all kinds of problems. Somehow I think everyone has some kind of problem to deal with. Maybe not all the time and maybe not everyone all the time but from time to time.
Also, I’m sure I’m not the only one to sometimes think I’m alone in my misery while everyone else is happy and without problems of any kind.
However, I can only speak about me and my own problems, so my blog often deals with me and only me. As if I’m the only person in the world having problems.
So, I write this to assure my readers that I’m aware of the fact that I’m not alone in the world or alone in having problems. And I do care about other people and their problems.
We’re all human and I think the thought of being alone in the world problems is a very common thought.
Something I happened to think of at this moment before going to bed to sleep after having had a long day that was mostly good and ended with a birthday party. My brother’s 64th birthday.
With the sound of the rain against my window this afternoon, I begin to type this rather typical blog post update thing.
This morning, I woke up very early. I had to. My first task for the day was to escort my mother to the surgeon, for some minor eye surgery. It all seems to have worked out the way it should and in a few weeks time, the other eye will go through the same procedure.
Later, after having done some grocery shopping, I returned home to have some lunch and then some rest before starting some writing: a job application among other things.
This evening my oldest brother may come around for a visit. It will be nice.
What else I will be doing tonight, I don’t know yet, but I will probably find some way to pass the time.