Things that need doing & things that should be done

Hi, readers!

Let me get my glasses on, or I might type something wrong.

Most of this week, I haven’t done much of anything. Then, suddenly, around Thursday I started to fill up with an urge to do something. That resulted in a lot of garbage taken care of, some indoor cleaning, some much-needed  grocery shopping and some more things I had been neglecting for some time.

Friday went by much the same way, at least to begin with, by the afternoon I was exhausted and fell asleep for a few hours.

When I woke up, I had lost the motivation to do anything at all. The rest of the evening I spent listening to music, watching a movie and reading the timelines of my social media accounts. I decided to start anew on Saturday (today).

This morning, I woke up rather early and got all my stuff together to start doing the things I should have been doing this week. However, right after setting it all up, procrastination set in and the plan was ruined. Also, today, the weather was, and is, so warm, sunny and beautiful that it was impossible to stay indoors. I went outside on the back porch and sat down, relaxed, took some pictures of all the garden flowers and plants exploding into life by the warmth of the sun. Did I mention I started my day with a cheese pizza and a glass of milk? Well, now I mentioned it, so we can move on.

Later on I washed some dishes and cleaned the garden furniture. After that outburst of activity, I decided to take the rest of the evening off. After all, Saturday night.

Now I’m here, typing this post. A moment ago, I made a plan for tomorrow: to get the things I should do done. Still got Sunday left to do it in.

 

John Mellencamp – A Little Night Dancin’ – Live 1982

On the road

Writing while waiting for the bus to leave. Been a long and not very exciting day so far.
Even though its my birthday I don’t think its a very special day.
However I appreciate all the nice greetings I have received from family and friends.

Thursday tales from the mind of SwedishMoon

Couldn’t resist. Not after coming up with a headline like the one above.

Only one problem – I’ve got nothing to tell.  So, this being my outlet of anything and everything, I will make something up as I go along. If any of my clever readers spot the movie and the character those words are taken from, you’ll receive a gold star and a special place in my hall of fortune and glory. Ok, enough of that. At least it takes up some space on the page.

Weather in this part of the world is cold today. Very cold. Almost freezing. And that’s all I have to say about that.

My day? Nothing much. Same old routine. Some interesting discussions about current affairs. Some writing. Some plans for the unknown future ahead. The usual.

Soup for dinner.  Some TV. Snow to shovel.

Reading things on the internet. Listening to music.

No I don’t think so

No I don’t think I’m the only one having problems. No, I don’t think I’m the only one having the problems I have.

I would very much not like to come across as thinking I’m alone in the world of problems. Of course there are lots of people having all kinds of problems. Somehow I think everyone has some kind of problem to deal with. Maybe not all the time and maybe not everyone all the time but from time to time.

Also, I’m sure I’m not the only one to sometimes think I’m alone in my misery while everyone else is happy and without problems of any kind.

However, I can only speak about me and my own problems, so my blog often deals with me and only me. As if I’m the only person in the world having problems.

So, I write this to assure my readers that I’m aware of the fact that I’m not alone in the world or alone in having problems.  And I do care about other people and their problems.

We’re all human and I think the thought of being alone in the world problems is a very common thought.

Something I happened to think of at this moment before going to bed to sleep after having had a long day that was mostly good and ended with a birthday party.  My brother’s 64th birthday.

 

The time has come

The time has come to make some changes. Perhaps the changes have been happening for some time without me really paying attention.

In my own mind I have been thinking about my place in the world and where my life is going and what I want to do about it. No different from how it has always been but still my thinking has taken a new direction.

My most important goal in life is still to find and keep a job that will provide not only income but also a chance to put my skills to good use.

Of course, finding someone special to share my life with ought to be the most important goal but it isn’t anymore.

I have to start to be more realistic about this quest as it has taken a lot of time, effort and energy out of me over the years without much result to show. The emotional wear and tear has also taken a toll and lately I have started to think it would be better if I didn’t bother so much with it all.

I have a few nice friends and some other good people in my life. Maybe to feel appreciated as a friend and to appreciate others in that fashion is actually good enough at this point. At least it makes me feel happy. I guess all I’m thinking is to be really happy for what I do have in life instead of always be chasing something more or better or whatever without reaching it.

Thursday text typing

 

Thursday. Autumn weather is here to stay. The days are slowly getting shorter, darkness comes earlier.

I feel like I’m moving in slow motion most of the time and still time seems to fly by at great speed.  A very strange feeling.

What’s the best way to deal with the past? To learn from it, live with it, discuss it, hide it or forget it? This question has been asked more than once in my country this week.

The answers are not always simple.

I think the way to deal with the past is to live with it, discuss it and try to learn from it.

In this blog I return to my past a lot. Often not only to describe it but to discuss it and maybe even see what I can learn from it. Over the years I find I have used this blog as a way to write about myself not only as I am today but how I used to be and how I became the person I am. Perhaps.

Lately my post are often reports of recent events in my life and I seem to avoid digging any deeper.

Maybe that will change.

 

News?

Reading the news sometimes makes me wonder why I bother. Most of the time I find it depressing.

This morning I read some news that made me doubt my sanity. Either I’m insane or the world is.

Anyway, I have managed to put it behind me.

I also read some blog about a subject I am somewhat familiar with. It made me wonder if I have been missing the point for more than a decade. For a moment I thought about writing a comment to it but decided not to.

My opinion on that subject would not be met with anything but rejection.  Not that rejection keeps me from voicing my opinion but in this case I don’t think it’s worth the effort. Nothing will change. If some people want to speak for everyone and lay down the law of  human relations then so be it. I will still stick to what I know and have learned from my own experience. To me that will still be more valid than anything else.

Moving on. Today I had an ambition to get some things done but I have yet to start.

Maybe I will find the energy soon. Or maybe not. If not there’s always tomorrow.

Nothing much to report from this week so far. I’ve been worried about a cat but it seems it will make it through. At least I hope it will.

Have spent my evenings much the same as always. Except last few days I’ve played a video game and seen time fly faster than ever. Sometimes a good thing but not always. However, it has been good to let out some stress by playing a game and not have to think about things for a few hours.

My mother will have some surgery done to her eye next week. I hope the result will be improved eyesight.

Always makes me worried whenever there’s surgery. I always think about what the surgeon told me when he decided not to operate on my legs: there are always risks involved with surgery so it should only be done if the gain is greater than the potential risk.

No matter what intention I start out with, I always end up in the same kind of blog posting mood.

Maybe this means I should stop and let this be posted like it is. Incoherent.

Just like my mind: all over the map.

Oh, look…Thursday

Hey hi hello!

I’m back. Bet you didn’t see that one coming…

Haven’t got much news to share but my mood is good so I thought why not write something here. Been a few days. People might start to forget this blog soon. When there are no updates.

I always say I will update more often, but I never do. It seems I do it when I feel like it and not when I ought to. Take it or leave it, that’s how I roll.

Most of this week I’ve been writing and doing other important stuff at the office. Right, if only it mattered, but it matters to me that I manage to be productive.  Makes me feel less useless.

I have watched some movies but none that I found good enough to write a lot about here. I will mention that I liked Wall Street – Money Never Sleeps though. As I am a fan of Oliver Stone ever since learning he wrote the script for Scarface and Year of the Dragon among other movies and ever since he wrote and directed Salvador, I keep trying to watch all of his movies even though the new ones have not been among his best efforts (in my opinion).

Have also been trying to get more sleep, which has not always been easy.

When the sun hits my bedroom in the morning it gets too warm to sleep and the light  does not help.  However , this will soon change as the days get shorter and the weather cools off.

Have had a return of my stomach pain this week. Last weekend I had no problems at all so I thought it would continue the same way. I still haven’t seen a doctor about it but I know I ought to.  Just have to overcome my irrational fear of hospitals and waiting in crowded emergency rooms. Done that too often to want to go through with it again.

Seems I’m starting to sound a tad negative, so I better get myself back on the positive side of the fence or simply end this text right here. What will it be?

The end.

Seven years of blogging

Soon, in June, this blog celebrates 7 years of existence.

It started out as my outlet for thoughts and feelings generated by interactions at a community webcam chat site.  Then it evolved into something like an online autobiography written and published one post at a time. From time to time I have also published pure fictional writings that have often been simple spur of the moment things. Some of my posts have been about certain topics – some attempts to discuss those topics and present my opinions. A lot of posts have also been about my interest in music, movies, books and food. Through the years I have posted photos, pictures, audio and video clips to break the blocks of text and to make the blog more entertaining.

When I started back in 2005 I never imagined having any readers but of course I hoped some people would find their way to my blog and perhaps even find it interesting enough to come back.  Now, seven years later, I know I have readers and even readers who regularly follow my writing here. I am very grateful for each and every one of you and thank you for reading my texts. I will do my best to continue writing and publish texts and other material in order to keep you interested.

However, what I write will still be whatever I feel like writing and that way it will as always reflect my personality. I will not ever attempt to adjust my style in order to attract more readers or try to figure out what will please the most readers.

Since people have found their way here and continued to follow my blog without me trying to please anyone, I think it would be stupid to start now. I will continue being me. That’s a promise.

 

 

A painting sold

Interesting how one famous painting can be sold for more than $100 million. There’s obviously not a lack of money in the world.

At times like this, I tend to think what if that money was put to better use instead. So many other things could be bought or done for those millions of dollars that could change things for the better for many people in the world.

Some might argue that buying this painting is good use of money and that Edvard Munch  is an important artist whose work is in fact priceless. I will not argue that. I still would not spend $100 million on a painting  even if I could afford it.