Friday November 17, 2017

Excuse me. I couldn’t think of any headline for this ramble so picking today was the easiest way out of that predicament.

Woke up early today after sleeping almost the whole night through. Still felt tired and not much in the mood for getting out of bed but eventually I made it up.

Not more than an hour later I was at the bus stop waiting to catch a bus to the next town to attend a meeting with a study group to learn more about ways to manage time, energy and activities for people with Autism Spectrum Disorder.

I arrived at a reasonable time this time because I almost didn’t go at all. However, once I arrived I started to feel better about the day. And the two hours went by fast. I like the fact that there are only four people in the group and that all are nice and friendly. It makes it all better and more interesting to take part in. Also, I like to meet other people with the same disorder. Just to know I’m not alone helps a lot. The funny thing is that I don’t find any of them strange, to me they all seem “normal”.

Anyway, no matter how interesting it was to be there, I was still very tired when I got on the bus back to my new hometown. Almost fell asleep several times along the way.

My brain is tired. The rest of me isn’t, but since the brain controls the rest of the body its hard to find the energy to do much.

I got home though, and had a nice walk in the sun through the park where the ducks along the canal greeted me with the usual “quack” sounding a bit like laughter.

At last, back in my humble apartment, I heated some food, had some drinks, and sat down to eat. Feeling exhausted.

Is this going to go on much longer? Well, I was wondering when you’d show up, figment of my imagination. You can always trust me to show up when you write boring pointless stuff like this. I know I can because you are a figment of my imagination. Are you sure? Why wouldn’t I be? Not the first time you show up.  And not the last! Well, that depends on if I let you. What do you mean? I make my own destiny! You think so? What if I simply stop typing, where will you be then? I will be right 

Well that’s the end of that. Back to the story of my day. Or perhaps not.

My Friday is rolling along at a slow pace. Pretty good but rather boring. Not much to add.

Sunday,May 22, 2016

Sunday.

Sunny as Saturday was but mostly cloudy,  I wasn’t much outside. The plan was to get some boring things done that really need doing but for which I have lost all motivation.

So, I’m seated here after midnight with all the work still to do. However, I will not start now. Instead, I’m off to sleep and then to dream.

When I wake up I really have to get my sh*t together, or there will be hell to pay later.

At least my worried mood from a few days ago has vanished. I got some help to get my brain back on track and for that I’m happy.

The struggle to keep my self in order is not easy and it takes a lot of energy away from me. Energy I could make better use of.

Friday night was a fun time though. I got to forget about all the problems and enjoy a few hours of good fun and laughter among other things.

I slept very well after that. All the way to the afternoon. Then I woke up with the energy I lacked the day before, but I didn’t put it to good use. I daydreamed the afternoon away all the way into the night, and here I am.

Some part of me tells me I might never finish this post. With all the distractions of late.

Anyway, I no longer remember where i was going with this so I might just stop right here and let my clever readers figure out the rest.

 

Things that need doing & things that should be done

Hi, readers!

Let me get my glasses on, or I might type something wrong.

Most of this week, I haven’t done much of anything. Then, suddenly, around Thursday I started to fill up with an urge to do something. That resulted in a lot of garbage taken care of, some indoor cleaning, some much-needed  grocery shopping and some more things I had been neglecting for some time.

Friday went by much the same way, at least to begin with, by the afternoon I was exhausted and fell asleep for a few hours.

When I woke up, I had lost the motivation to do anything at all. The rest of the evening I spent listening to music, watching a movie and reading the timelines of my social media accounts. I decided to start anew on Saturday (today).

This morning, I woke up rather early and got all my stuff together to start doing the things I should have been doing this week. However, right after setting it all up, procrastination set in and the plan was ruined. Also, today, the weather was, and is, so warm, sunny and beautiful that it was impossible to stay indoors. I went outside on the back porch and sat down, relaxed, took some pictures of all the garden flowers and plants exploding into life by the warmth of the sun. Did I mention I started my day with a cheese pizza and a glass of milk? Well, now I mentioned it, so we can move on.

Later on I washed some dishes and cleaned the garden furniture. After that outburst of activity, I decided to take the rest of the evening off. After all, Saturday night.

Now I’m here, typing this post. A moment ago, I made a plan for tomorrow: to get the things I should do done. Still got Sunday left to do it in.

 

John Mellencamp – A Little Night Dancin’ – Live 1982

Some body, my body, any body

Body.

There’s a tv show starting over here in my part of world under the title Biggest Loser. From what I’ve gathered it’s a show about very heavy people losing weight and often very fast. To be honest I have never watched it but the new season of it seems to be about losing weight in order have a greater chance of finding love and enter into relationships. As if  the amount of body weight would be the only difference between success or failure when it comes to love and romance.

I  seriously doubt that body weight is the one ultimate key to success in the social arena, but if people want to believe it and use the chance of romance at the end of the line as a motivating factor to lose some weight, fine by me. I’m not here to judge anyone.

Speaking for myself though, I have never thought of any connection between my body, weight or they way I look and my problems in the social arena. I think I’m a plain, average looking guy and I have never thought of myself as ugly or handsome or that my appearance is a problem for me. I have always  seen my problems as related to my thinking and my inability to learn how to play the social game. To me the problems are all in my mind and have nothing to do with how I look or how much I weigh or how tall I am.

Over the years and more often when I was younger, I got some compliments on how I look and how I dress which only served to make me feel awkward but looking back it also made me a little more confident. I remember thinking: at least I look ok, if only I could get my head straight as well I’d have nothing to worry about.

So where am I going with this ramble? Only to this: I’m happy with the way I look and with my body but there’s always room for improvement.

Why I write this is because of all the times I have written about my social problems and I only wanted to point out that I don’t think my body is to blame  for any of them.

 

“Slippin’ and Slidin’ “

[Used to be The Band – Slippin’ And Slidin’ but it was made unavailable on Spotify so now it is this:]

The Band – Stage Fright

Just posting because I like it.

My weekend report

My weekend started on Friday. I don’t remember much of it except the chatroom  I was in and the snow I had to shovel. The first was fun and the second was a boring chore that brought me an aching back and a lot of fresh air.  Oh, and I also travelled to the city and bought some clothes.

I slept kind of late on Saturday morning. Probably didn’t get up before 10 am. Read the morning paper, had breakfast. Then went out to shovel more snow. Also had some other chores but didn’t have the energy to really get much of it done.  Instead I had too much to eat and watched a lot of episodes of Sons of Anarchy on Netflix. During this, I also tweeted and checked  my Tumblr dashboard. Went out to shovel more snow later too if I’m not mistaken. Did I also stop by a chatroom on Saturday night? I can’t remember so I hope I’m not offending anyone. I was really sleepy once  I managed to get to bed.

Woke up late on Sunday morning. Had a nice dream probably but don’t remember much of it. Again, I had breakfast read the morning paper and then went out to shovel some snow. Starting to sound like a boring weekend by now.  I guess it was kind of ordinary.

Spent the afternoon watching the rest of the episodes of season one of Sons of Anarchy. Later, around dinner time, my oldest brother visited for a while.

In the evening, I had a long shower and washed my hair. Afterwards, I felt very refreshed. Continued to watch Netflix while also reading Twitter, tweeting and looking at Tumblr.

Went to sleep rather late and woke up around 5 am because I had to go pee. Then fell asleep again and woke up too late. Since the weather wasn’t too good, I decided to “work” at home and sent a message to the office about this before going out to shovel some snow and then going out to do some grocery shopping, pay some bills and other stuff.

The end.

Some people

Some people have that ability to always leave me feeling happier than I did at the start. Whenever I see them. Every time.

I could write a long story about it but what is said above is all that needs to be said. Also this:

Thank you.

This is Friday

A weekend without any parties. Will be good. I need to relax a bit. Last weekend was a lot of fun but it left me exhausted.

This week it was good to be back to the old routine again.  I’m also glad to have made some progress in writing and other efforts at the office. The whole week has been good so far.

I think it has something to do with seeing a friend online for a few nice chats. For some reason that always makes me feel better about everything.

Also, the weather has been nice for most of the week but yesterday and today the snowing started again. Not much to do about it. Winter still means snow in this part of the world.

Of course I could mention I have applied for a lot of jobs already this year but I don’t think the amount really matters much unless there’s a result. However, it looks good on my report to the (un)employment  agency.  During the week I have also started to work on some other applications for jobs that I hope will result in employment. Eventually.

Trying  to focus on the good things is not always easy. I have already stumbled on that road and managed to get sidetracked towards the bad things, but I keep on going. Sooner or later I will get it right.

 

 

Nothing to do with anything (just a post)

Hey, Friday! LTNS !

What are you on about? I was here a week ago, remember? 

Oh, yes…so you were. I had kind of forgotten that.

How do you forget me, Friday – the day of all days?! I mean, I  could understand you forgetting Monday…but me? I’m offended. 

I’m sorry. All days are kind of the same to me lately.

What a lame excuse. I’m not even sure it is an excuse. Is it?

Kind of…I guess.

Geeez, you better get your act together. Like yesterday. 

Ok.

 

Goes without saying

If you think I seemed angry in my last post, let me assure you that you do not have to believe everything I write. I’m not always being serious. Sometimes I try to be funny.

Sometimes that being funny doesn’t really come across the way I intended but nevertheless, funny is what it’s supposed to be. At least some kind of funny.

Maybe not your kind, but hey, I’m the writer here and what I say goes. Love it or leave it. Your choice.

This probably sounds rather harsh, so I think I’ll have to write something even more positive before I get stamped as being a very grumpy old fart. Not that it wouldn’t be true. I am in fact rather old and most of my life I’ve been asked why I’m so angry just because I seldom laugh or smile in public.

What was the topic again? What do you mean you don’t know? I should know? Well, I don’t know.