Goodbye to 2015.
What a year, If I had known this time last year what 2015 would be like, I would have stopped time one minute before midnight and let 2014 repeat itself.
My 2015 started with serious suicide thoughts and a depression that needed medical attention. After that long struggle through the Winter, Spring and Summer I had my 48th birthday in September and started to have some hope of a better end to the year.
As soon as I started to think that things could start to be better, however, the next blow came around.
In October my dear mother suffered a major brain hemorrhage she couldn’t recover from and passed away after spending a week at the hospital.
Suddenly my whole life turned upside down and inside out. I’m still trying to get myself back to working order. I know it happened, but at times it all still feels unreal. Like a long dream I’m waiting to wake up from.
I spent Christmas with one of my cousins and her family and other relatives. Not being alone on Christmas eve was nice. But it didn’t really feel like Christmas. I don’t think Christmas will ever be the same as it was before.
On the employment front there is not much to tell. I’m still looking for work.
The examination to determine my possible neuropsychiatric disorder will start soon and when that is all over and done, I hope I will be able to get some more help and support in order to find some work and to sort out my life.
I still hope 2016 will be a better year and the start of a happier life for me.
Happy New Year, readers! May 2016 be a wonderful year for all of us!