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Time to write something

Published 05/27/2017 by MoonieZ

The time has come, and gone, but now I’m back to the empty page to try to fill it out with some words that may or may not make sense to anyone, including me.

Yes, this past month and a half I slipped back into a mode I thought I had put behind me for good. Not so.

I guess temptation got the better of me. Again. Doing something over and over and expecting it to turn out differently is not very clever. Doing it again while knowing it won’t, is probably even worse. Stupid.

Anyway, I guess I had to do it since I went along and did it. No way to undo it, just one thing to do and that is to stop doing it anymore. I clearly can’t handle it very well so best not to do it at all.

Might take some time for it to sink in that stopping is the only way forward and I will surely miss doing it but I have to be more sensible at this point. The chance I have now to do something that will benefit me in the long run will never return, so I can’t let it slip away by making foolish choices. Already done enough damage to myself  and I’m the one who suffers from it.

Still, it didn’t hurt while it happened. Only now, when I see the damage I’ve done.

On the other hand, I had fun. I guess I must find other ways to amuse myself. I thought I had not too long ago but then things happened that made me fall back into the old ways again. The destructive ways.

 

Lost but never forgotten

Published 05/15/2017 by MoonieZ
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Dad at 43 years old.1967

Well, Dad, 22 years has passed now without you around to help me. I never thought I would make it this far but here I am. Of course, Mom was a great help for 20 of those years, but now I’m going to have to make it on my own for the rest of my days.

You gave me a great start and I’m forever thankful for the years I got to share with you along with everything I learned from you. You are forever in my thoughts and I will always remember you and all that you did for us all – family, relatives and friends.

Today, May 15, would have been your 93rd birthday and I wanted to write this to express how much you mean to me and how much I miss you and most of all how much I love you, always.

You got to live your dream, so today I hope you take Mom with you and go for a nice flight since flying was your life.

Might be May

Published 05/03/2017 by MoonieZ

Yeah, I’m not dead yet.

Sorry for the long delay between posts. I haven’t been feeling like writing a lot lately.

You know how it is, you wake up one  morning and you just can’t face life anymore. Been the start of many great novels. At least I think it has. If not, it ought to have been.

What I’m trying to say isn’t much so this is it.

Later.