Yes I know, I had a Frank Zappa moment there for a second or two. Ain’t it funny how that one song is the one everyone seems to connect with Zappa when the man made so much great music? Not saying that song is bad but still, there is so much more music to the name Zappa.
Ok, that little rant is not the topic of this post. I just happened to think of it while typing the headline.
September is here again. Yes, I know it has been a week of it already but you see I haven’t been up to writing anything. As usual. The times when I had to express myself every day of the year seem to have vanished. Now I’m happy if it happens once a month or even less. Besides, nobody reads blogs anymore anyway, right?
Well, I still read a few from time to time but to be honest I spend more time reading Twitter and Tumblr these days. Even so, I like to keep this blog alive because I want to reach the 10 year mark next year. Also I’m still thinking of trying to make something more out of the texts I have published over the years. Will see where that leads.
At the new office place I’m at most of my days, I still struggle to find a meaning and a new project to work on. I am waiting for the election to be over so that things might change. With a new government things will change because policy is going to change. If nothing happens, I’m not sure how much longer I can go on seeing my life go to waste.
Yes, I know if I want to see change I will have to be the change. Easy to say. I’ll tell you this: walk a year in my shoes then come back and say that again if you still think it is so easy.
Of course I’m still searching for employment. Not much else to do, if I wish to find something. No luck though.
My health is somewhat all over the map. Lately, I’ve been pretty good but it changes a lot. I know I would be better if I had been doing a real job for all these years instead of only looking for jobs. The stress sometimes makes me feel like I don’t want to live but I usually fight that feeling. Many times I feel useless though. Forgotten by society and only considered as a statistic.
Thankful for the friends I still keep in touch with. Not sure I’d go on without you all. Music and movies provide some relief and renewed energy, but mostly comfort and escape from reality. Same goes for TV shows.
Look, I managed to repeat myself again. Time to leave.