I’m back. To what? To feeling ok. I had to struggle to get back to that feeling. To get away from feeling sad and depressed.
On the other hand I wrote that I would feel the way I did until I wasn’t feeling that way anymore. Well, anymore is here.
There’s new grass on the field. Well, not new grass at this time of year perhaps but maybe enough left of the old grass to support a better feeling.
This morning I woke up after sleeping rather badly again. I had some belly ache and didn’t feel like getting up, but I did and I also got myself ready to go to the bus and I finally arrived on time at the office.
New people started today too. One more body in the small room I share with one other person. Sorry to say that new person had to witness how I got into an argument with the roomie about taxi cab fares. Then I was told I don’t talk, that I only talk to myself and that I’m ridiculous and mean.
So for a few hours I felt rather upset about this. I had only wanted to help with the taxi cab fare matter but perhaps I didn’t express myself too good due to being tired from not sleeping very well.
On twitter I almost made a fool of myself and said something stupid to a friend which I still feel bad about.
Anyway the day got better later on and by the time I went home I had a better feeling in my bones.
After dinner I rested and looked for a movie to watch. Then I went to a chatroom to talk to a friend and it was a nice few hours that really made my day a lot better. In fact, I now feel so good I am almost ashamed of all the words I’ve used for the last few days to tell the world about how depressed I felt. Notice I said ‘almost’.
I’m not going to excuse my feelings or regret sharing them. At least not all the time…
So what remains of my evening, I’ll be spending watching some movie or some tv and then I’ll be going to sleep.
All is well that ends well.