Heard on the bus this afternoon

Guy#1: What’s the weirdest things a girl has left behind at your place?

Guy#2: I don’t know…

Guy#1: You know XX she forgot a toothbrush once…

Guy#2: Who the hell brings a toothbrush when they go out to a bar!?

Guy#1: I don’t know…(laughs) bring a toothbrush to a one night stand? ….And once I found some fake nails some other girl had forgot…I mean how do you forget a thing like that?

Both guys laugh.

Guy#2: Well at my place one girl forgot a phone charger…and ‘ve found false eyelashes (sigh)…stockings…wallet… shoes…panties

Guy#1: Yeah false eyelashes…How can they forget a thing like that….Anyway you know ZZ? She says she forgot her panties at my place…but I haven’t found them….I’ve been looking everywhere …I’ve got no idea where they are

Words aren’t my friends

Not today.

I struggle with a text I would like to write but it never comes out the way I want it to. Today I started three times and after hours of writing threw it all out. The words don’t look right. Don’t sound right. Don’t do anything right. And this text needs to be right. It needs to be perfect in getting the meaning across. I guess I will keep trying until I get it right. Or keep failing.

Peace.

Thursday…

Ok, it was time to post something again. Not that there’s much to say. I’m usually at my best when I’m unhappy but today I’m happy so this will be a badly written post about nothing. Just in case  you are in a hurry reading and don’t want to waste your time I can inform you it won’t get any better than this.

I’ve spent a few nights without much sleep. Due to the fact I’ve been at a chatroom seeing a friend. Two nights of good times. To be honest the second night probably was more fun than the first but both were nice. I always enjoy hanging out with my friends online. Even when I don’t have time to sleep a lot. I will sleep tonight. As soon as this post is done I will be going to bed and probably sleep like a baby.

The text is not finished yet but I’m getting there. I have a clear idea what to do to get it done. This week has seen the office expand into bigger quarters and more new people joining our force. Yesterday I spent part of the day puttting furniture together. It was kind of fun and it was good to get away from the stress of writing for a bit.

Looking forward to the weekend when I will be able to go driving. At least I hope I will. It’s been almost two months now and I’m really missing that car.

What else is new? The weather hasn’t been so nice. Mostly cloudy, rainy, windy and chilly. Fall is advancing fast and I can feel Winter lurking just around the corner.

Sometimes I wish I was somewhere else. But I’m going to be right here.

The problems with the water heating is not solved yet. Hope it will be soon though. Not being able to shower properly is not good. Only possible to wash off with water heated on the stove. Feels like living in the 18th century.

Well, time to go to sleep.

Peace

Life is good

It should be. It could be. It might  be.

Today I woke up from a dream. I don’t know what it was about but it was probably nice. As I got out of bed I felt a pain in my body. I feel that pain almost every minute I’m awake lately. No matter if I walk, stand, sit. Only when I lay down to sleep does it stop, or perhaps I just don’t notice while I sleep. Anyway I know I must go see a doctor about but I haven’t found the  courage yet. I always hope pain will go away eventually. This pain hasn’t.

Seems the car isn’t ready to be used yet. I had hoped to have it back this week but now I don’t know. I only know I really miss driving. A lot.

The last bus ride home this afternoon was murder. Half the bus was full of teenagers. They were very loud and had exactly no manners. If I wasn’t such a coward I would have told them to sit down and shut up but being the mild-mannered forest creature I am, I didn’t. Sometimes I wish I was tough but I’m not.

Anyway, the other bus rides were ok. Much better than the crowded commuter trains in the morning. This morning they were delayed again. I wonder if they’ll run at all when winter comes for real with snow and ice.  Last winter there were a lot of problems with the trains. But last winter I didn’t have to go anywhere. And I had the car to drive.

This winter  I will have to go to the office five days a week. It will be fun. Maybe not.

Today the  government presented next years budget. Not much they had to offer for the unemployed and the poor. But a tax cut for restaurant meals instead. Supposed to be good to create some more jobs but I doubt it. And meals won’t be cheaper. The restaurant owners will earn a bit more money. That’s all.

I’ve soon been out of work for five years with a 6 month employment in 2008 as the only break from poverty and unemployment. Before this unemployment I had my leg problems that lasted more than a year. So life’s been good.

Not that I haven’t tried. I keep trying. I do what I can but the times are tough and I’m looking for a lover who’ll come on in and cover me… No, I’m not much of a bargain. Actually I’m not looking anymore. That time has passed. I’ll have to be happy with the way things are.

This sounds so depressing I think I need to stop writing. Nobody likes bad news and my endless whining.

Next post will be more fun.

Peace.

No life

Yes, I have no life. The post I wrote today about my weekend ought to prove it to you all.

I am happy even without having a life. It could be worse. I could be dead. That would be terrible. Probably.

Still feeling sick/ill and having pains in my stomach. Should go see a doctor but I’m scared of what they might find. That makes no sense, I know, but that’s how it is. Every time I’ve seen a doctor has been the beginning of some extended period of treatments, pain and suffering. The problems with my legs lasted for years and it was not thanks to the treatment by the doctors that they finally healed.  Nobody even knew why they healed. Much less did they know why the problems started.  So I am scared.  I know I have to go sooner or later but I’m still scared. I have no need for more problems right now.

Ok, that was it. No more whining today.

Peace.

Weekend spent

Hey it’s me again! Your friendly morale officer Moonshine Glowsinthedark. I’m here to tell you how I spent my weekend.

Saturday & Sunday.

1. Went to sleep at 4 am or something, Saturday morning. Little hard to remember as I was not awake. 2. Got up again at some point. 3. Checked Twitter, Tumblr & email. 4. Checked the cam site MFC. 5. Listened to music. 6. Didn’t have breakfast but started eating chocolate. 7. Must have watched pictures and/or videos because I seem to remember having masturbated at some point during the day. 8. Started to feel ill or sick in the early afternoon. 9. Went to have a nap while getting dinner ready or after or before, not really sure. 10. Slept a bit after dinner too. Felt better. 11. Got back to reading tweets and listening to music. 12. Was at MFC for a bit looking around. 18. Checked Tumblr and re-blogged a lot of stuff. 19. Fell asleep sitting at computer. 20. Woke up and was awake a  while. 21 Decided to sleep in bed and went to bed. Got up again around midnight and checked the usual stuff.  22. Felt sleepy around 3 am and went back to sleep. 23. Woke up again at 8 am. Got up. 24. Checked Twitter. Checked Tumblr and checked MFC. 25. Listened to music through Spotify and decided to write a blog post. 26. Started writing but stopped after a few sentences to watch a video. 27. Daydreamed a while. 28. Watched video again  while beginning to masturbate. 29. Interrupted by uncle coming to visit. 30. Helped uncle to check the car to prepare for inspection tomorrow morning. 31. Back at computer. Checked Twitter & Tumblr. 32. Decided to write this blog post. 33. Wrote this blog post. 34. Published this blog post. 35. Will masturbate again since I didn’t get to finish before. 36. Later I will try to have a quick shower and wash my hair even though the water is not really warm enough. Must have that fixed very soon. 37. Rest of evening don’t know what I’ll do but probably much of the same as the other evening. 38. Go to sleep at a decent hour.

Peace.

“Evacuation of the West”

Bruce Springsteen – Evacuation of the West

Early Springsteen at his very best. I love this track.

Holy Friday!

Yes. I’m alive.

Funny thing happened today on the way to… Actually, nothing funny happened. Nothing funny at all.

All I did this morning: 1. Woke up 2. Checked Twitter 3. Got up 4. Checked emails 5. Checked Tumblr 6. Checked blog stats 7. Checked Hayden Hart’s blog (you all should check it) 8. Checked my mail and profile page at MFC 9. Looked at pictures 10. Looked at video 11. Masturbated 12. Washed my face, combed hair, brushed teeth 13. Got dressed 14. Went to the bus stop. 15 Got on the bus 16. Got on the commuter train 17. Got on another commuter train 18. Arrived at the office 19. Switched on computer 20. Started to type

All I did today: 1. Checked Twitter every 10 minutes 2. Checked email every hour 3. Daydreamed of You 4. Typed 5. Listened to music 6. Typed some more 7. Daydreamed of You  again 8. Moved to a new room in the building 9. Went home by bus 10. Grocery shopped 11. Arrived home 12. Had dinner (pizza) 13. Checked Twitter on home pc 14. Tweeted You good morning 15. Sent out my #FF’s in reverse order 16. Went to chat at MFC 17. Started Spotify to listen to music 18. Reblogged stuff on Tumblr 19. Decided to write this 20. Finished writing this

All I will do this evening:

Peace

When I’m 44…

…will you still love me? Valid question. I am 44 now. My birthday was yesterday.

It got a bad start as I woke up in a kind of bad mood. I had been having a rather boring Sunday. Found out there was no hot water due to some failure I will need to have fixed very soon. Heating water on the stove is not an alternative for very long.

However as the day went on, my mood improved. I was greeted at the office and got a lottery ticket which proved to be a winner. Not a big win  but still something.  That made me happier. Then I got home, and was greeted with a nice sandwich cake. Also got a postcard from my aunt, a phone call from my bro the chef and some greetings on Facebook.  My uncle came by for some cake and some coffee. My mother greeted me.

Even later I got a birthday greeting from my internet friend which made me smile and it was the perfect end to a nice birthday. Did also chat with some nice people online.

This evening my oldest brother came by to greet and he brought me a present. A book, as usual. Also very nice.

Today I found out I probably need to use reading glasses which made me feel rather old. But I have to be happy to have been able to read everything without glasses for 43 years.

Peace.

Ten years ago

Ten years ago today. I was at home. It was the day before my birthday. I had almost recovered from the first round of problems with my legs and had started working again. At least part-time. One would think it would be easy to remember all the details of that time but all I really remember is how hard it was to believe what I saw on the TV news that afternoon.

We were in the kitchen. My mother was there and my aunt who had come to visit for my birthday. We had been getting things ready for my birthday dinner when the reports came in over the radio and we had switched on the TV set in the kitchen. None of us could understand how what was happening right before our eyes could possibly be true.

The first news I heard about a plane crashing into one of the World Trade Center buildings I thought it was an accident involving some small private aircraft or helicopter. Then when I learned it was a hijacked commercial jet, a Boeing, I could no longer believe it was really happening. That it wasn’t an accident ,that somebody had flown the plane deliberately into the building, was impossible to really understand. Then I saw the second plane crash into the tower in real-time on TV and just felt horror and sadness.

Peace.