Last Wednesday of May

Here I go again on my own

Had not planned to write today. Had other plans. However, sometimes I feel the need to vent a little. Outside of any schedules. Since I don’t have a schedule for this blog everything happens at random anyway.

So last night I had trouble sleeping. Rather I fell asleep but woke up shortly after only to fall asleep again. This happened a few times and then at around 6 am, I could no longer fall asleep again. I wanted to but I couldn’t. Tossed and turned for about one more hour, then got up.

Decided to make it a work at home day since I knew I would be tired all day anyway from lack of proper sleep. Started doing some office related stuff and some other things I should have done ages ago. Then took a break to do some laundry and go say Hi in a chat room.

After all that I returned to writing and suddenly had an urge to write this, just because I feel like writing about this day. The last Wednesday of May 2012. Another day that will never return. Another day lived through. One more day behind the cart, one less in front of it.

Late last night I watched a Dennis Miller HBO Special from the early 1990′s that I happened to stumble upon. I found it rather funny even though some references were a bit difficult to grasp for me as a foreigner and as such unfamiliar with some aspects of US society and culture.

Yesterday I was also reminded of my last po’ boy in New Orleans. It was in 1995 and I remember it being a tasty roast beef one from some place with a lot of locals in it. Wonder when I’ll ever have another one.

Read about a new book  in which the author claims that love is not about feelings at all, instead it is an act of will. I do not agree. To me love is about giving, a feeling of wanting to give without asking for or expecting anything in return. However, I could be wrong but that’s how I see it.

The weather is not as great as last week but still ok. Cloudy, a bit windy, kind of cold and some rain on the way. Rather normal for a Swedish summer.

Sort of Sunday

Not the best Sunday ever. Still not too bad. In the morning I woke up feeling rather good. I went out early to catch a bus. I had to get to the mail box to post a letter. After getting to the post box I suddenly had a very bad pain in my lower belly and almost couldn’t make it back to the bus stop to go home. These  pains are not new, I’ve had them a few times a week for months now but they are not often this bad. Of course I ought to go see a doctor about it but as it has been better for a few weeks or even a month I thought I was going to be ok anyway. And for the last three days before today I have had no problems at all. So this was a major set back.

Today I had planned to be with my mother and my oldest brother to dinner because it’s Mother’s Day here in Sweden. Now they had to go without me but at least it didn’t cancel the dinner that I had to stay at home. Still, it made my day less enjoyable for a few hours until I started to feel ok again.

Last night I stayed up late watching the Eurovision Song Contest 2012 , being broadcasted live from Baku in Azerbaijan. Don’t ask me how that country is considered a part of Europe but they are and they were last year’s winner of the contest so they get to host this year’s final.

However, next year the final will be hosted by Sweden, because our song Euphoria (performed by Loreen) won.  It wasn’t one of  my favorites but of course I’m kind proud that it won. Last time Sweden won was 1999 so I guess it was about time for us to win again. This was Sweden’s fifth win and that makes us one of the top ranking nations in the history of the contest.

Sweden’s first win was in 1974 when ABBA performed the song Waterloo  . Then  Sweden also won in 1984 and in 1991.

One more Monday

Hey, I’m sorry. I have a cold. This weekend I haven’t been feeling too good but I have endured. Sure, I know how the saying goes that guys always sound like they are really ill when they are in fact only slightly ill. But, I will not sound like I’m about to die from this cold. I promise I am going to be well enough soon enough. Just wanted to tell you about the facts of the matter.

People who are fond of intrigue and strategy must be very pleased to follow the second season of Game of Thrones. For the rest of us, its become a tad boring to follow all the power games and backstabbing going on. I long for some epic battles and acts of heroism and bravery, where the scoundrels are punished and the righteous are rewarded.

Go find another series to follow? Yes, perhaps, but I’m allowed to dream, am I not? Anyway, I sense great things will happen if the series will continue. For now I follow along and try not to get lost among the many games being played.

Time for an update

Morning, Wednesday. Nice to see you again. Been a week since last time. How have you been? So and so? Ok. I’ve been mostly rather good. A bit busy, a bit in pain and I’ve had some fun.

At the office I had rather a busy week. Lots of writing to do. Lots of jobs to apply for. Lots of work to do on the blogging project I’m still trying to get going.

Also, I’ve been following the trial against the terrorist in Norway who detonated a bomb killing 8 people in Oslo‘s city center and later shot and killed 69 people (mostly teenagers) at a summer camp on a small island near Oslo on July 22 last year.

A terrible and cruel act of terrorism.

Let’s see, what else have I been up to? Sleeping. Done some of that. Can’t remember how much though. Eating. Yep, done some of that too. Probably not as healthy as I ought to and probably too much at times but hey, I only live once and when I’m dead I’m done so let the good times roll…and rolling is what I’ll be doing if I don’t watch what I eat.

Drinking? Yeah, but nothing containing alcohol. I don’t often drink anything other than water. If I drink anything else its usually juice or Dr Pepper.

What else? I’ve watched Game of Thrones. Just keeps getting better. I wish someone would kill Joffrey, that little sadist annoys me greatly  but  I have a feeling he won’t be punished anytime soon.

Watched some movies. Too many to mention all of them but the best ones have been Toy Story and Monsters, Inc – both produced by Pixar. I have only a few more to watch before having seen all of them.

I have also been listening to music. Usually on Spotify. There’s really no need for any other source. At least not for me. I keep finding stuff I didn’t know of as well as stuff i like that I haven’t listened to for some years. Now that Spotify links are possible to embed into Tumblr and WordPress it has become even better as a source for sharing and discussing music.

Ok, what else. Yes, I have been to some chat rooms to see some people and enjoyed a few fun nights. Been really nice.

The rest of the time I have had some chores to take care of.

I think that’s all there is.

No sex? Nope, no sex. Unless  a few moments of daydreaming in connection with thoughts of a certain someone counts? Maybe. Perhaps. Does it matter? Not really.

Peace.

Snowy Saturday, 2012

Yes, I’m back.

This Saturday I woke up around 10:24 am, after having gone to sleep at around 7:00 am. Needless to say I didn’t plan to stay awake all night. It just happened to be that way because a friend was online and I couldn’t pass on a night of fun.

When I looked out my window this morning I wanted to go straight bacck to bed though. The world was all white, covered in snow.  Heavy, wet snow.  Yet I did rise and had my breakfast. Made my way out through the snow to the mailbox to collect the Saturday morning paper. Read it.

Then had some rest for a few hours before having some food in time for the afternoon hockey game broadcast to start on TV. Watched the exciting game and then had some more food before going out to shovel some more snow away from the driveway.

The evening I’m spending listening to music on Spotify. reading tweets, looking at my Tumblr dashboard and writing this update.  Probably it will be another long night of fun also.

If the weather is better tomorrow I hope to be able to get out and do some shopping.

Easter Saturday, 2012

Hello people!

Taking some time away from things I ought to do to bring you this update. Perhaps it will be a waste of your time or perhaps not. Nobody knows for sure.

The weather today is sunny but the winds are cold and there’s still some snow on the ground. However its a lot better than yesterday. I didn’t go out at all.

Today I will probably have to as there are some things I have to buy for the Easter dinner to be complete. Also I want to get out and get some air and a bit of sun.

My pains are somewhat mysterious but I’ve been able to conclude they are not caused by kidney stones. What the cause is I haven’t figured out but since the pain comes and goes and isn’t getting any worse or more frequent I’m guessing it’s not a sign of  anything too serious, only seriously annoying. So now I’m trying to determine if it has something to do with certain food items or  not.  I know I ought to see a doctor to perhaps find out what the problem is, but since I’m not really ill in any other way I think maybe it’s not that serious after all.

I did only watch parts of some movies yesterday.  I also listened to some music on Spotify.  Then I spent a lot of time looking through my Tumblr dashboard and also some time reading my Twitter timeline. My day ended in a chatroom of a friend, then I went to sleep.

Today I hope to remember to watch episode 7 of Game of Thrones since I’ve managed to forget it for the last few days. At first I didn’t like that show much, but after watching some more of it I started to be interested and now I actually find it entertaining enough to want to follow it.

Later on I expect to talk to some friends and have some fun. Maybe I’ll watch some TV or some movie. I’m sure I’ll be having some Easter candy as Easter is a lot about candy in Sweden lately. It used to be about painting and eating  boiled eggs, pickled herrings, salmon, roasted lamb and such but now the candy eggs are IT.  A long, long time ago I believe Easter also had some kind of religious significance but I’m not sure what.

Happy Easter!

Sometimes

Sometimes it’s good to stop and not rush in like a fool. I was about to update this sooner but I’m glad I didn’t. That text would not have been clever if it had been written and published then. At that time I didn’t have all the facts and would have risked jumping to conclusions, the wrong conclusions. Now that the facts are in I am able to write something better.

Yesterday I didn’t do much of anything. I had been awake almost to 6am hoping to have a little fun in a chatroom but instead I spent the night waiting. Needless to say after that adventure I was tired because I slept only about 4 hours before getting up again.  Not much later my mother invited me to have dinner at the local pizza place so we went there in the early afternoon and had some pizza before going grocery shopping and then returning home.

The rest of the evening I spent watching the live broadcast of Whitney Houston’s funeral service online  and later I also watched the third qualifying competition of the Swedish Song Contest on public television.

Before going to sleep I looked around at chatrooms and took a quick look at Chatroulette. I also looked at my Tumblr dashboard. Feeling slightly bored and tired I fell asleep after midnight. Slept well and woke up around 6am then went back to sleep for another 3 hours.

Got up and got dressed at around 9:30am.  Checked Twitter and read some posts. Went out and removed some snow, got the morning paper and returned inside to read it. Got a call from my uncle asking if I would like to go to the theater. I didn’t really feel like it but eventually I said I would go. He had a ticket left over due to another person’s illness and didn’t want it to go to waste.

The play was a production of  Noel Coward‘s Brief Encounter where the live action on stage was integrated with filmed sequences shown on a screen above the stage. It was an entertaining show but I can’t say it was the best I’ve ever seen. At one point I even started to fall asleep which was odd since the play is only about 90 minutes long.

I went to buy some groceries on the way home and got back just as it started to snow. Had dinner and then went to check out the latest news from the online world.

Soon I will have a shower and then I have a few more hours to kill before going to sleep again.  Another weekend over and done.

Peace.

 

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Hi there…

Yes, I’m still alive. I know I haven’t been writing much here lately. I’ve been too lazy. I haven’t been too busy. I have been doing things but mostly I’ve been sleeping. Well, not only sleeping. I’ve been at the office, I’ve been at home and I’ve been eating too much, gained too much weight,  been feeling a bit down and out and somewhat depressed. Lonely. Confused. Not in tune with anything.

So this weekend I’ve enjoyed some fun times and seen a good friend. Suddenly I feel reborn. Funny how some late night fun can change my mood and my outlook on life. Or at least turn it around for the better. I woke up smiling this afternoon. Haven’t felt like that in too long. Decided to just be in that feeling and not do too much. Of course I had my usual urge to send countless tweets and emails to my good friend to let her know just how good I’m feeling today but then I stopped in my tracks and decided to not do my usual stunts. Instead I’m going to keep myself under control and let my friend have her weekend in peace without my urgency.

So I’ve let my Sunday unfold in about the same manner as most other Sundays. Been reading the morning paper. Had an early dinner. Listened to music ,watched some videos and looked through my Tumblr dashboard. Backed up some files. Cleaned up the hard drive. Listened to more music. Watched some TV, read some news.  Had a shower. Plan to go to sleep early and be ready to start a new week in a good way.

Other notes. My old friend has not answered my last email so I’m guessing I can let that whole thing rest and remain a fond memory.

I’ve been looking for a direction but haven’t really found one. I have plans and ideas but I seem to have trouble making them happen, turning them into something real.

Always been a problem.

I don’t want to spend any more time living in my head. I’ll be 45 this year. I have to grow up now. Start to act my age. Only one problem – I find growing up to be a bit boring. I don’t even know what it really means. Once long ago I thought I had grown up. I acted like someone a lot older than my actual age. Then I lost that somehow. Probably I got scared of life after my father died. Or I started to think of living as pointless, a long wait for the end that no one can escape. So – maybe I should set out to find God? Not my cup of tea, old boy. I believe in humanity and in human beings and that’s all the faith I need.

Been watching lots of movies the past weeks. Too many to mention. Most of them were good entertainment. Some were a bit boring. Some I haven’t been able to finish. Like Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy. I hope to finish watching during the coming week.

Once more I’ve managed to write a post with no real point to it and going all over the map in terms of topics.  That’s how my mind works when I set it free.

Hope it hasn’t been a waste of your time to read this.

Peace.

Dexter

Image via Wikipedia

Started watching season 1 of Dexter  late Sunday evening. Continued watching on Monday at the office at lunch time. Now half way through the first season. Find it interesting so far  but maybe not exactly my cup of tea. Still I will try to watch all of the seasons to see if my first impression will change.

Finished watching season 1 tonight (Monday).  My first impression has changed a bit. I find the characters around Dexter more interesting than Dexter himself, but the whole show is interesting enough to keep watching.  The end of season 1 was rather thrilling even though it was easy to figure out who the bad guy would turn out to be.

Started watching season 2 on Tuesday evening after a pretty bad day with lots of problems unsolved that I had hoped would be solved.

I had some trouble getting into season 2 at first. The first and second episodes were ok but a bit like waiting to get started on something new. Then in episode three things started happening and I have begun to see why so many people seem to be addicted to this show. I still don’t like this Dexter character much but I do find the interactions between him and the people around him and the interactions between the other main characters more interesting. Will be interesting to see where the second season will go.

Finished watching the second season at lunch time on Thursday. Was a really messy ending but as usual Dexter walks free and some other good people take the punishment he should have taken. I know that this is entertainment but I can’t help to question the moral of this show. The moral of Dexter stinks. That’s my opinion. However I still like watching the show and I will keep on watching it to the end. Some parts are very enjoyable and even funny and I think it’s a very well made series.

Will start watching season 3 later today (Thursday).

Have finished the third season on Friday evening.

This one was a bit tough to chew down. Not as good as the first two, and it seemed too unfocused at times. I didn’t really get a good grip on it. The action didn’t speed up until the last three or four episodes and then it all ended a bit too neatly for my taste.

Also I ‘ve started to note a certain pattern in how the seasons and the whole series are constructed. How each season begin by using the first two episodes establishing what’s happened before and to introduce some changes like new characters  and a sense of how much time has passed between seasons. It seems that each season so far starts out with a focus on Dexter’s secret “work” and where his character is at in terms of personal and professional life. Then slowly the main police investigation of the season is introduced and at the same time some minor sidetrack narratives involving the supporting characters begin. I also noted that each season can be said to be revolving around a specific theme that Dexter has to deal with. At least it seems that way regarding the first three seasons.

I’m moving on to season four and hope to have finished watching it by Saturday or Sunday at the latest. Probably I’m slowly beginning to be addicted to this series.

Watched season 4 late Friday night and all day and evening Saturday, finishing at 2 am Sunday morning. This has been the best season so far. Even better than season 1. A very sad ending to a very thrilling and emotional storyline.  This season was not like the previous ones. Even though the structure is similar to the other seasons the action started to pick up speed much sooner and the main villain turned out to be a really interesting and twisted character. Everything was simply better executed in this season. I couldn’t stop watching, had to keep going to see how it would end.

Will move on to season 5 tomorrow and hope to reach the end of season 6 by Wednesday.

Season 5 was good, and an interesting turn of events. Some great scenes  and some really funny ones.I watched it on Sunday and Monday.

Started to watch season 6 late Monday evening and continued on Tuesday, ending almost at midnight. I liked season 6. It has some interesting twists and characters and the ending to the season makes sure I’ll be watching season 7 when it starts.

My final verdict on Dexter is that its a very good show and I guess I’ve grown to like it during this week of watching it. Still have some doubts about some moral issues but I think as a whole this series is great entertainment. Some cool characters and a lot of good actors.

 

Wednesday words

Yes it’s me again. I can’t help it. I have to write. What about, I don’t know. Something or other. I’ve done a lot of writing today. Also did a lot of laundry and some other chores and helped my mother do some shopping and did look for some jobs but without much luck. However, I am not giving up. Someday I’m going to get out of this situation I’m in. Someday I will get myself out of this. Somehow. I’m working on it.

I’m not spending much time at the chatrooms lately. I have started watching movies and TV series instead. One can say I’m taking a break from the cam/chat scene. Been a lot of it for many years now and I think I should take it easy for some time. See if I can find some other things to do in my spare time. Not that I don’t have fun when I chat but I still like to rest now and then and in the past I used to be at more than one place and for the past two years I’ve only been at one place and it starts to get a bit too much.  Also I’ve lost track of many nice people I used to chat to from time to time. Some have left the business some are just gone anyway and others are not around a lot but I still see them when they are. Things change and people change and that’s just how it is.

Today has been a regular Wednesday. Nothing much to say about it. Been watching TV this evening and some episodes of NYPD Blue on dvd. I wonder why I didn’t watch that show while it was new. I guess I never got into it as much as I did Hill Street Blues and L.A. Law but now I find it interesting enough to watch. I’m probably a bit behind the times when it comes to TV shows.

Well I will watch some more and then get to sleep. Another day at the office tomorrow.

Peace.