To think I have everything under control. When I don’t control anything. Almost not even myself. To think the unreal could be real just by a will to make it so. To think a dream could be made real just through trying enough times.
I’ve had an unrealistic approach to reality. To what is possible and what’s not. To know what is there and what’s only in my mind. To see the difference and accept it. So many times my mind has wanted me to interpret reality in an unrealistic way to better suit my dream of how it ought to be. For too long this has been going on. For too long I’ve allowed myself to indulge in my illusions of reality in an unrealistic way. I’ve gotten lost in that world. Lost my sense of what is really real. My sense of what’s possible and what’s only wishful thinking. I guess if you have had a dream or a wish long enough it becomes a very powerful force in your life so that it even makes you lose your sense of what’s real and what’s not. Make your expectations unrealistic instead of realistic. Even though I think I’ve got myself out of that , I still slip back into it and have to make another effort to get back out.
Not that it’s wrong to dream or wish or hope for things to happen, but it might be wise to make a reality check from time to time to make sure the dreaming is not distorting one’s perception of reality so that you stop seeing what’s really there in favor of what you wish it to be.
I’m not sure this makes any sense to anyone but I will post it anyway because it’s what I’ve been thinking of lately.
