A treasure to behold

This short YouTube-clip is the best video recording I’ve seen (yet) from the time when my brother was in the band Kal P. Dal and toured all over Sweden.  I have of course seen the band play live back then several times (late 1970’s), but not once since then except for this short clip. Probably there is more recorded material available in television archives from the band’s appearances on TV shows and such, but so far nothing has surfaced. This clip is a treasure for that very reason.  Enjoy !

A great song

The road across

I don’t know. I don’t know. Sometimes I do know but most of the time I don’t know. Something has got to be wrong or maybe it is just the way it is. Same story over and over and over. Just when you think you’ve got the hang of it you find yourself  lost again and back at square one. If only it would not always be so darned difficult. If only once it would be easy. Like it was. No it wasn’t. But the other end of the line knew how it was and made the road across easier or at least a little shorter. Thanks, that was really the best that could happen to me. I don’t know if I ever will find my way forward like that again, but if I do I’ll know who made it possible for me to believe it could be done at all. You see I have a great trouble in accepting the idea that it is possible for me to get across at all. It is the story of my life. Failures and steps not taken, roads not travelled because of fear, lack of courage and a good map. Well, dear readers, I won’t bother you any longer with my strange stories. Sometimes life is just throwing stuff at us that we only have to accept and deal with no matter what we feel or think or wish about it. Somedays, though, I’d like to have something to say about it.

A friend

It is fantastic how much it helps to talk to a real friend sometimes. Yesterday I saw my friend again. And that made me happy, because my friend is happy. After a long time of being depressed by my lack of life, I felt much better even though I have bills no honest man can pay (but still I am honest, I promise)  and other “problems” not fit to talk about in the open. (Never knows who will read this in the future), so anyway talking helped. There are others who help to and some are people I know a bit from before, and others I’d like to know more. And all in all they’re great to have around. Just a mouseclick away…or even longer sometimes. So this means that yours truly the “Moooonister” is back in black and ready to roll, because walking is hardly his game anymore than acting normal in a strange way. Chill and it will be .

Ok, now. That was the other one talking this is me.

My friend, I wish you all the happiness in the world now and forever.

Thanks for always having a word when it is most needed. Yes, I mean You.

Later…

No singing in this rain

Hello everybody ! And if anybody feels like a nobody you are welcome too… No discrimination only is the policy of this blog. Here I write pointless posts about anything, everything and nothing that passes through my brain at times. The impressions and the expressions of the world around my small place on Earth are also allowed to be included in these posts. Sometimes, and often too, these posts tend to start at one idea and end up with another with no connection inbetween. SO if you find this confusing it is only natural and not related to any malfunction of your software, hardware, brain or body. I will not be held responsible for any damage to good faith or bad breath as a result of reading these posts. Should the risk of damage to sense and wit be at hand the reader is instructed to pass out in a suitable location. Whatever my be infringed by these posts is a matter of debate, which in no way excludes the possibility of severe waterboarding being a very serious crime to be taken lightly at any place in time by anyone not aware of it. That said, reading of this post does not exclude your right to be offended but it also includes your right to be amused at any cost. If any cost is attached to the reading of these posts, they are to be paid by the reader at will. No demands will be made from the writer of posts to claim any kind of payment for the entertainment provided. Should a such a claim be made the settlement will take place at dawn in the park behind the statue of the great [name erased due to copyright issues] and be performed in the form of a tomato throwing duel. First to turn into sauce will be lost. At the  end of this hard rained day I will look back and find this rather funny but right now my bottom is dry and my hands are busy. Slight, is the last word to write but not today as it is the first of the last. The last is this.

So what

Summer is not so hot today. And it is good. Sometimes the heat can become too much. I feel like my brain is boiling when it gets above +25C outside. Hardly able to think. Luckily, I have not much need for thoughts on Sundays. But, if I had had a job I would have had a need for thoughts. Last summer I worked Sundays. I was exhausted sometimes, but always felt good leaving work because I liked the thought of  having done a good day’s work. Too bad it wouldn’t last. But life goes on. I am  happy to see that things can still change for the better. All I have to do is to keep going, keep on trying. But for a long time I have not believed in that. Now is the time to turn the ship around again, find some wind and set the sails. Never too soon to give up or is it never too late… ? I never know.

Last but not least. Bruce is the Boss.

A rose by any other name

No I’m not on about flowers. In fact, if it is a fact at all, I’m not on about anything. The whole point of this post is that it is utter nothingness. Some days that is all I can manage. Because, and this is a fact, when it gets too close I need to back down and run away. All my life that’s what I do. Never seems to learn. There was one who once tried to teach me to be different. Almost had it. Almost. Then ran off again. Well you know, it is better to shut the door yourself than have it shut in your face. Or maybe it isn’t. Maybe risking it all is the way to go. One day I ought to try that approach just to see what will happen. Right people time to end this.

Thunder and lightning

and rain. Lots of rain. Still hot. Still sunny. But first rain, thunder and bolts of lightning. Interesting day. Friday it is even. Another Friday. A month of Fridays. Or at least a month of days. Nothing much happening on the work front. Still searching, still looking, still no result. On the home front – the heat makes me lazy. I spend time online, in some chatrooms. One of them is really nice lately and the people there have fun. I am glad to have been directed to that place, because it helps to keep me smiling and not to think of my problems every day, every moment.  I sorted through my dvd collection yesterday, trying to decide which ones to sell and which to keep.  There are too many so I must sell some of them, or a lot of them. I will be starting that as soon as possible. Same goes for finishing my studies for learning to drive. I am just taking too much time getting it done. But I feel I need time to do it right.

I have been neglecting my old friend again, which is not what I like to do, but I find it impossible to be there when I feel very unhappy with my life. I don’t wish to only show up when I have problems and feel low. I want to be around when I am happy and be able to share some joy instead.

Strange, isn’t it ?

Another hot day in a hot room

Yes. Today has been a hot day. In many ways. In fact I have not had a hot day like this in many years. Not since 1984. I remember going to the opening of the second Indiana Jones movie was a hot event. Man, my whole life was focused on Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom that summer. This is the 1st of July and soon summer will have passed. It starts so slowly and goes away so fast. Every year. Almost. But, back to the present and why this was a hot day. Or, maybe better if I don’t share that experience. It is so easy to get the wrong impression. Which means I’m going to end this post with a cliffhanger. Will I reveal the identity of the room in which my day was spent ? Will I manage to keep the reason why it was a hot day a secret ? The answers to these and all other questions will be revealed in the next episode of : Another hot day in a hot room… Stay tuned.

Not a lot

just a little.

I haven’t got a clue what to write. Last few weeks I have been feeling like a stupid idiot and been very depressed. There are people I should show that I care about and people I should be nicer to, but all I manage to do is to alienate them all. So I guess this is another of the many I feel sorry for myself posts. But in fact I’m not sorry for me, I sorry for the people I let down. They don’t deserve it, and I am not doing it because I like it or want to hurt them, but the result is the same anyway.  Sorry. Not very good to always talk about how stupid I feel but I can’t seem to stop doing it. Same as when the weather is nice I should just enjoy it but no, I can’t. Guess it is better to stop here now.